i've never really known why i think the way i do or advise & provision the way that i do, but i feel like, if i didn't, i wouldn't be who i am now. alongside the fact that my life from about 10years ago, up to now has been nothing more than a lesson, i ode alot of my current & growing intellect to my past.. i use to always say "..tomorrow all of this will be over & i'll be able to start fresh.." in some cases, it was a lie. in some it was the truth but the reason why it turned out in THOSE times to be truth was because i BELIEVED.. so its safe to say that sometimes i don't believe what i say because i've either seen a different outcome, pumping in green & blue --- or i know better than to believe that what I'M saying is gonna be whats gon' be. we all crawl for that daylight coming from the blinds; the blinds that we closed on ourselves to keep us blocked from the other side.. we crawl the morning after, asking for forgiveness - & forgiveness is always good, if its from the heart. we all say & do the same things, plead the same bargains, take the same oaths - the morning after..
*Ace
