everything is so vivid with me & yet it can be so fragmented in thought, being that my mind runs like crazy. i never look at things for how they're presented, but for what they could be symbolized through or with.. i've had "Can You Feel It" by Timbaland on repeat since Shock Value 2 has came out & its had me thinking so much about alotta things. its amazing how everything is alright with just KNOWING that imma be with you 20 years from now & we're just a year & a half in. everyday i have to stop myself from wanting to give up on everything because for the last few months, nothing has been working in my favor.. but its like, you have sooo much faith in me that i don't even seen in myself.. hell, even my right hand homeboy sees the same thing that you see - but i can't.. so i'm trying to see it all before its too late, so that we can be where we need to be in God & in love.
we talk everyday & 80% of what i see // create // listen to // eat - it reminds me of how much i'm dying to be with you more & more in many different ways than the obvious ones. i keep thinking about everyone that may be against our relationship & speaking ill about us on the sly & i think about those who haven't seen us yet & i smile.. a BIG smile because i see it happening like, - i dunno, haha. listening to the song from Timbo, the energy is fast pace because thats how i feel in my heart just from seeing your name on my phone, you pictures, everything.. but the visual i see behind these glasses in my mind, its in slow motion - because thats how i want it to be with you & i - slow.. i want us to be able to savor everything & be in depth with everytime we lock eyes, hold hands & kiss each other..
call me crazy. call me whatever you want but this is real as all hell to me.. & whats funny is that with everything thats seen in my head, once again, its cinematic.. from the way i touch you, to the way you smile & giggle & how your nose moves, which you know i find to be cute, hahahaha! sometimes i feel like i'm repetitive in verbal submission to you upon what my heart says & feels about you. i don't much of anything from anybody so me getting a beautiful angel, thats gotta be the best gift ever..
pictures tell the story of my life.. match me. aishiteru..
"..you didn't come this far to say no.."
*Ace
