..as i embark on another year in coming of age, i've come to see that i've put alot in the hands of God. now, trust me - i'm some perfect individual that is gonna just start speaking all kinds of scripture from the Bible & tell you what you can & cant do; suppose or not suppose to do - because thats not me. i'm just letting you as the person reading this know that change & God are beautiful things.
as i look at my age & then look at the things that i've been thru - alotta people, guys mainly, would have just quit, blown their brains out, been in jail, everything. i was at a Holy Convocation today & as SOON as i walked in - the pastor called me to the alter.. this pastor did not know me at ALL - but the people/leaders of my church were their & close people were their & THEY knew me & they know my story & situation.
he spoke & told me alotta things that people already knew about me, & how i'm not suppose to be here; how the devil has been trying to destroy me, my faith & God's plan for me & how i'm doing what i'm doing to fulfill my dreams, ambitions/goals & to reach my destiny. i've been praying on a way to purchase myself a new knee brace for my knee because of a knee injury that happened about 6 months ago. i've been dealing with bills & other things so its been hard to cop that joint being that has to be made & ordered. serious business.
well, today i stepped out on faith as my biggest test yet - & i said that imma trust that God is gonna bless me with what i need because i really need that new brace.. but i have to trust God in which i didn't fully need the brace that i had on that was in shambles from being used so much in the last 6 months. i said imma believe & have faith that God is gonna watch over me while i AM exposed like this until he blesses me with my new brace. the new one will allow me to restrengthen my ligaments, ACL & MCL. its another test upon many that i've faced in the last year - year & a half but you know what? - ..i aint come this far to turn around or stop.
i've been seeing alotta things thru these eyes on all levels.. i need to make sure that the people that i'm gonna surround myself with from THIS day on, will be people of support, faith, love, compassion, heart, endurance & integrity. for where i'm about to go, its a straight away off this winding road that i've been traveling on.. between the battle with pride, depression & self-motivation, i've gained more knowledge, self-endurance, God & love. i can't turn back now - refuse to do so.
i thank everyone that has been a support system from one way or another & to those who haven't or swayed a different way because i chose to better myself, rather than continue to hender myself - God Bless You.
peace & soul.
*Ace
