i took control of my life along time ago & despite the bridges that i've built AND the ones that i've burned, i still find it hard to understand why i give so much of me, mentally. i got tired of the feeling of not beingin control or, knowing that someone was waiting for me to fail by THEIR words & help.. then i looked in the mirror one night where i lost a friend.. & how he betrayed me.. i looked at how i lost something that was never there & never WANTED her there as time went on.. i said to myself "..what am i doing?" from then on, i soil my face with in the mornings & nights with stares from the other side of the glass, taking notes.. & turning my back any & everything that doesn't want here OR there.. "..when you get tired of the nights crying & wondering about who feels what about you, you'll find that energy to give up.. but the moment you give up, you lose.. i don't like losing. never have & never will.. but then there's some things that you HAVE to give up on; so with that, i can ACCEPT losing, but i still don't like it." -RND
*Ace
